Ya Allah forgive your weak servant for at this particular time, she has no strength to motivate herself and tell optimistic things as she looks to the mirror. Right now as tears form in my eyes, I dont have an idea of what to say to make me feel like its ok.
I have tried so hard, so hard, to be perfect. Of course I fail miserably. Sometimes my emotions get the better of me. But the thing is i TRY. everyday. I try to be patient and good and undemanding and grateful and determined and positive.
Do you know tht feeling when you sincerely try, you try everyday, though it doesnt bring about any positive result, you do it anyway? You keep going and going coz u know its the right thing to do..but at the end of it all, you realise wht you did is just..almost pointless.
It hurts so much right now. I do not know how else to help, what else is in my power that i can do to better the situation. Iv done all that i could and still it proves to be fruitless. Whats worse, my trying to be good sometimes does no good at all.
Bingung. Sedih.
im tired of trying. but i know that i cant stop. im tired but you know that you just have to DO IT. Do the right thing and keep doing it even if you never ever get the thing you want no matter how long u dreamed of it, keep going at it even though the situation doesnt improve, just keep GOING.
penat sgt.
i know that sometimes we dont get what we want, but we get what is good for us.
i know and i try to live by it. But i wish if what i want is not good for me, then Allah help take away the feeling, my desire for it, so I wouldnt feel sad. I wouldnt feel like this.
because this time, i just wish, wish, wish so bad that I could have this thing, this thing which is not even an extravagant demand, but is so difficult for me to achieve. for once, i dont wanna think about everyone else. for once i dont wanna feel guilty and bad. for once i just wanna think about me. but i cant.
Today, Murni has no words of wisdom. No quotes for encouragement. Today Murni has nothing to give.
3 comments:
i love u syg!anything im just a call away.its okay to feel like dis sometimes.cz we're not perfect.bt make sure,tomorrow.u wake up as the brand new you.it could be for the simplest reason:) love u murni.
Hang in there. I suppose it is normal to have your share of ups and downs.
That's life.
And I know it gets particularly hard for you as things dont get handed down to you so easily. You have to work your butt off to earn everything you own. But that's ok. It builds character they say.
However, if there is one thing to note,don't beat yourself up on trying to be perfect. Perfection is one thing that mere mortals cant attain. And the sooner you realise that and the sooner you understand how great you are, the better you will feel.
You will finally see how others who care for you, see YOU.
For the time being, when patience is wearing thin and you feel like screaming bloody murder, there's nothing like gal talk and ice cream to soothe the nerves =)
I agree wif Monday and Nadiah, Maey.
We won't love you any less if you're imperfect. We think you's purrfectly impurrfect.
Let me do my famous doggie dance! That should make you's smiles a bits
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